I miss you

been 3 years.. will you believe it?? 3 years back today my dad was scolding me to sleep soon for the next morning we had to come to meet you.. I woke up on 15th the usual way – dad waking me.. and dressed… then I switched on my PC and was on net in no time.. Uncle was there (Tublu).. he had his webcam and as it was a lil early some 8 o clock.. he was free and so he showed me his room.. it was blue.. I remember it all so clearly… this is one thing I wont forget.. this day was like eternity long and still its eternity away…

Then we came to your place but I didnt find the you I knew… I am extremely sorry… I know I havent been upto standard ever… I have been a bad grand-daughter but you know its too late when you realise it.. and now that I do… there is no one to listen to this..

I miss you Eja… you are life! You taught me all I know today… you know whenever someone calls me good, I feel so proud… because you got all that goodness into me… my mum – dad arent like this but you are.. and I learnt it all from you. I choose my wrong and rights from what you told me and touchwood, I have been very lucky till date… except for this date 3 years back…

I have listened so much frm you… even when I didnt wish to.. remember waking me at 3 at night and asking is it 3? I hated u for that moment.. bt at the end of the day I do need you here… please…

There doesnt go a single day I dont miss you… its impossible and I donot know how I made it this far… I really need you… I cry almost every night but you arent there.. its ridiculous of life that a person becomes a photo.. and no matter what you do, the photo wont talk to you… you dont care na? You dnt care anymore.. for if u would have, I know, you would have been here with me.. for me…

They say that you are there with me always but I want you here where I can tell you things, talk to you, ask you stuff and all that we did together and which we didnt.. I promise I will read out stories to you daily.. but please come back na… Eja I sachi mein miss you!

Kaash.. it was me to leave and not you… we all need you..